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Silence #2
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
I'm still thinking of silence. John Cage's Silence isn't really a new idea. Shackleton wrote about it in his diary and many writers before him used the connotations of silence within their work. What would radio be without silence? Silence plays an important part in art and poetry. I wrote a dissertation about snow and its connotations of silence. In my delirium of solitude I was associating his silence and all the snow in some sort of pathetic fallacy. Snow - a blank field - is both empty and full of promise. Silence carries the same duality. Perhaps his silence means he's trying to forgive me? Perhaps it means he wants to punish me? Maybe he hasn't given it a thought? How can people say silence is nothing, when its so full of options? I'm filling my time with music and making, reading and writing because it detracts from the over-possible-ness of silence. Similarly, Cage experimented with sounds - claiming that any sound constitutes music. Sometimes when there's too much sound I need to empty my head, and like Jenny Diski; seek refuge in ice and snow to escape from it all. It's interesting how, prior to this recent Arctic blast, we connote snow in such a way. People's attitudes towards silence and snow are changing out of some necessity for them to do so. We'll see if 'Cage against the machine' make it to christmas number one this week...
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Rowboat
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Rowboat
Clinging to this rock
can’t see in the dark.
Hear sick
white horses
galloping unshackled
and words
bend
truth like
waves bend
wood
on the rattling waters.
Posted in ambiguity, emotions, love, truth, water by Unknown | 5 comments
Immortality
Friday, February 20, 2009
The Witch of Words
She'll look you in the eyes
and smile as
she casts her spell
and turns you
into poetry.
Now you are immortal.
Posted in ambiguity, immortality, poetry, visual words by Unknown | 1 comments
Eira
Saturday, February 14, 2009
...choose your own story
The thick snow covers over the capitalist state we’re in. Even the roads with their etched lines of a thousand cars look beautiful, magical under snow. The marbled sky reflects the undulations beneath. Where there’s been snowdrift; ridged banks form; mimicking the hills in the background. Inhaling the air cools your whole body like pulling on a menthol cigarette or the sharp almost pain from sucking those eucalyptus throat sweets. There’s a hazy sunshine powering through the cloud coverage, enough to warm the exact spot on his shoulder blade where beneath the winter coat his freckles form mathematical dot-to-dots made up of little isosceles. Her nose wrinkles like a rabbit when she thinks of this little secret to his skin that so few other people must know. They walk with carelessness and ease, despite the black slush and its icy counterparts. It gets harder going when they’re walking along in the deepest bit – the bank beside the road. The increase in the leg work results in deepened breathing providing the soundtrack to the afternoon. An engine cuts into the staggered breaths.
If they hitch a lift go to 2 If they jump into the snow go to 3
2 Ha! Finally! He’d said that something would come along. The car was rolling slowly, all too aware of the hazardous surroundings, so it wouldn’t be hard to attract the driver’s attention. He waves his arms in the same way he dances; jolting elbows here and there. Somehow it seems to have worked and the darkened window buzzes down, replacing the monochrome image with a tired looking face hiding amongst salt and pepper stubble.
“Any chance of a lift to the next garage mate?” He extends the jerry can; shaking it slightly as the viscous liquid circles the very corner and makes a dry rasping rattle.
“There's one just a couple of miles down that way…” Says salt and pepper, indicating with his gloved hand over a snowy pile that presumably has a hill under it somewhere.
“Sure… Jump in.”
If the driver helps them to their car go to 4 If he takes a detour go to 6
3 They exchange glances as the vehicle approaches. From the snow to each other and then to the quickly shortening road before them, as if following a tennis match. And without speaking they both seem to know what the other’s thoughts are and make a leap in tandem from the road into the powdery white bank. The driver has a grin on her face as she speeds off into the slush and our girl is laughing uncontrollably as she flails about making a backwards snow angel in the deepest snow she’ll ever see. And our boy is snuffling – a kind of laugh hidden by the inhalation of snowflakes and their interference with his respirations. And they kiss in the snow and the laughter, and try to stand up once again. This snow is knee deep and harder to manoeuvre through so with little grace or finesse they return to vertical and carry on walking towards the lake. Around the forest in the distance there’s a pink glow echoing the colour of our girl’s cheeks.
If they make love in the snow go to 5 If she tells him a secret go to 7
4 They both sit in the back of the Jeep and their eyes occasionally meet with their quiet driver. The snow is really coming down outside and our girl pulls her sleeves around herself and sits on them until she resembles a sailor's knot – all bound up. The silence isn't really an awkward one. They're listening to a French radio station about Arthur Rimbaud '...j'adis, si je me souviens bien, ma vie était un. festin où s’ouvraient...' Her gaze falls to the dusty ledges beside the window sill. The skeletons of a few bugs frame the darkened glass and she can't help but wonder what this stranger's tale is and what brought him to her and her brother. As the garage comes into sight over the hill, her eyes light up at the thought of being alone with this dark and quiet French man. Her brother gets out of the car shaking his jerry can again, the way she recalled him shaking his cup for milk when they were small. Now was her chance and she slid easily through the gap in the Jeep to sit beside the stranger.
“Je vous ai attendu ange” he murmurs. I've been waiting for you, angel. She hushes him with one finger to his mouth, as she presses the button to release his seatbelt and takes his hand to lead him away from the warm engine. That could wait. Go to 5
5 They hold hands as they walk along the lane; scooping up the occasional ball of powder and scrunching it together to form a loose snowball to throw. There's a tightening in the air as the sun hides behind an enormous fluffy cloud that hangs in the sky in all its pathetic fallacy. As they pass fields of virgin snow both pairs of eyes scan for an entrance to this magical land. He points to a slight incline leading to a gate. Either side of the gate are layers of barbed wire clumsily wrapped over stone-walling. The gate itself free of the ivy-like wire, but lopsided and standing on one leg like a bar stool in a lazy French café. Looks as good a place as any, they silently agree. The track is deep, but not slippery. Rooting one leg under the cross-piece on the third bar he swings his other leg over the gate, which wobbles emphatically and threatens to throw him off like a bucking bronco. He jumps into the claggy snow the other side as she attempts to follow him – a little more shakily. They walk together through the deep snow; kissing and laughing like children. The cold air goes unnoticed and she pushes him into the soft white blanket. He sees the birds huddled and gathered on the wires above him. She sees the reflection of the white hills and clouds in his eyes flashing white as she makes love to him for the first time in the snow... THE END.
6 The clouds over the hill tell darker tales of rain rolling in from the coast and lost highways. Our boy sits upfront with Salt and Pepper and our girl bundles into the back with the ragged sheep dog with odd coloured eyes. One pale blue like those of her beloved Daddy and glaciers and summer skies; the other rich brown like her own or a fresh cup of coffee. She feels uneasy and can't say why so her fingers bend down to entwine the rope-like fur of the dog, which she nervously winds round her snow cracked fingers and unravels over and over. Our man is sure they should have passed the garage by now and is surreptitiously peering out of the window to try and gain some recognition of where they might be. He hears the dreaded CLUNK of the door-locks going down and knows that his breathing is getting erratic with the fear of what may be next. The absurdity of the situation is almost laughable. If he was watching a film, he would be screaming at them before they'd even got in the car to stay away! Stranded on the moors in the snow with no fuel for their car and no idea where it might be now. What choice did he have but to trust the first stranger that came along? Thoughts colliding up inside his head make him have to catch his breath. If anything happens to my little girl...
And in the back our girl looks back seeing the snow disappear as though a dream was melting away behind her. She looks at her Dad and winks. This is the signal he has been waiting for and he stalls the car almost immediately to reach for the chloroform saturated rag he had prepared earlier.
“I told you, babe, you won't have to call no-one else Daddy ever again after today.” THE END
7 She wonders if she's ever seen him look so beautiful. Being with him in the snow gives each of them a glimpse into what it would have been like if they'd known each other as children. They come to the brow of the hill and she reaches for his hand and places it on her not yet showing tummy. “You're going to make a brilliant Dad”, she says and his eyes light up with orange particles that glow. Eira is Welsh for snow. THE END
Posted in ambiguity, choose-ending, love, story by Unknown | 0 comments
swigs
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Swigs
Clumsily swooping
in an evening sky;
there go the swigs -
gulp them down.
Too fast to feel
much.
(noun) A large and hurried swallow.
Posted in ambiguity, drinking, language, sonnet by Unknown | 0 comments
New Year
Friday, January 9, 2009
New Year
in the night;
kiss away your tears
and tell you i was
sorry
I couldn't hold you
at christmas
but every time
I looked over
it
wasn't
you
I was holding.
Posted in ambiguity, love, sonnet by Unknown | 0 comments
A New Day
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
a new day
The day begins on orange
particles
and sunfire
burns the metallic
you always said
you didn't believe
in forever
tread only on silent
memories
Posted in abstract, ambiguity, particles, sonnet by Unknown | 0 comments
I wrote
Monday, January 5, 2009
Half sonnet: I wrote
I wrote a poem today.
It’s not about you;
I’ve been hiding the ones
that are
scraps of truth
and memories
evade me
Posted in ambiguity, guilt, love, sonnet by Unknown | 0 comments
Love sonnet to Time
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Love sonnet to Time
the fish is out of water.
In the back seat of a car
a lullaby is whispered.
An abacus counts in a
bedroom. One after
one. Click.
A consciousness of many;
tangled feet on desert
paths.
Posted in allegory, ambiguity, love, sonnet, time by Unknown | 0 comments
winter chill
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Halfy Halfy: Seasonal Allegory
This metal world has lost its poles;
another snow flake melts in your breath.
You see the winter inside you
as flames concertina you into the water.
Acrylic licks alter your future;
acrid desperation echoes on the tongue
like the bitter taste of saccharine.
Posted in ambiguity, half, sonnet by Unknown | 0 comments
A Wire Broken
Friday, December 19, 2008
Posted in ambiguity, electricity, emotions, love, sonnet by Unknown | 0 comments
Pearl Harbour
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
A tide washed out
A tide washed out and revealed
beneath it bodies.
Rolled up like henchmen
guarding an underwater universe.
Their colours said welcome
against the iron gravel
that mimics sand.
Their cries leave a scar
in the ocean floor.
And little jewels of ash
scattered
like starry nights;
burned into the water
and its collective memory.
I wrote this one after a dream I had involving a tide washing out and leaving behind it bodies. In the dream these bodies were left after many suicides had taken place from a horseshoe shaped cliff resembling a bay on the South coast of Cornwall between Mevagissey and Pentewan. I think I prefer the poem without any explanation as it leaves it open for interpretation. I think it implies a tragedy related to water, perhaps Pearl Harbour or more recently the tsunami in Asia.
Posted in ambiguity, death, imagery, sonnet, water by Unknown | 0 comments
Christmas cheer
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Half + 2
Hark the sepulchral organ grinds
out of tune and into the night.
I have this disease that mimics
love. I can recognise it in you.
I tried to record every event
that happened in minor detail
in case I needed them later.
I tried to fix every broken number
but hearts are more your style.
Posted in ambiguity, christmas, love, music, sonnet by Unknown | 0 comments
life called
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Ain’t it just the way
Life called today
and apologised for getting
in the way sometimes.
Her husband is flirtatious
and easy.
Sometimes he makes
friends too quickly and keeps them
away from Life.
He says he does it to protect them.
Life says sorry
she gets in the way sometimes.
Posted in ambiguity, death, life, sonnet by Unknown | 0 comments
Proposals and all sorts...
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Ring Ring
Once there was a Will
but he couldn’t find a way.
And then he asked me to marry him.
And I said ‘I dunno’
and felt confused for a few days.
So I called someone for help
but then I answered the telephone.
So I have discussed it
with myself
and I think I might do it,
but I won’t publish it on myspace
and there won’t be an announcement
at the table
and we won’t be exchanging rings.
Posted in ambiguity, language, proposal, sonnet, telephone by Unknown | 0 comments
Persimmons
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Persimmons - Sonnet-4
folds over my face
in summer time.
Sticky
ledges of sand under
the trees.
Autumn turns them
brown and over ripe
but deeply rich;
they attract flies.
Posted in ageing, ambiguity, nature, social comment, sonnet by Unknown | 0 comments
on the street
Friday, November 21, 2008
On the Street
I can see him from the corner of my eye;
my next victim. He’s a smoker
and he pulls hard on a thin cigarette;
exhales and the purple plume unfurls
extending it’s tendrils across the street.
The night here is thankless.
His scrawny body leans against
a tree; the gnarled branches
hanging lifelessly down.
I’m stealthy in my approach;
showing my weapon to my victim;
though I sense his fear – “Salvation army”,
I say, holding my badge – “Come with me”.
I go to bed knowing I saved another life.
This sonnet was inspired by a clever story I found on redbubble.com. I liked the duplicity of the word 'victim'. To read the original story click here.
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Love sonnet
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
A Love Sonnet
I have photos of you
in every room
and your eyes
follow me about the house.
I think you would love me too
if only you would
talk
to me.
I love you
with all of my
OCD.
I recently watched an interesting programme about mental illness and liked the idea of saying 'I love you with all my OCD' - So the poem really evolved from that line.
Posted in ambiguity, love, OCD, sonnet by Unknown | 0 comments
Meeting Lee
Monday, November 10, 2008
Half sonnet -2: Voices of War
Met a man who killed a man.
He smoked Lambert and Butler
one after another after another.
Words came out like gunfire
cracking in distant hills.
I met a really interesting character in the pub. He was a children's entertainer/musician/songwriter and many things besides; including an ex-soldier. He actually had seven confirmed killings and everything in the way he moved indicated an edginess, a nervousness that emulated gunfire. He has come to Falmouth to bring an exhibition called Voices of War, which concentrates on the art and creativity produced by other ex-servicemen. The exhibition is in town 10th - 17th November, which is really quite apt as today is armistice day. Lee Kamara has posted many of his recordings on You Tube, click this link to hear 'The Politician', which is a comment on the injustice of it being a man in a suit pushing a pen who decides who gets sent to War. You can also click here to see the Voices of War website.
Posted in ambiguity, army, death, gunfire, smoking, soldier, sonnet by Unknown | 0 comments
Number 10
Sunday, November 2, 2008
I had an idea for an ambiguous sonnet wherein there is some confusion about whether it is the poem killing the author or the author killing the poem, but either way it was through over thinking the form process. This may require some editing before it is submitted, but it was good fun to write.Number 10
Gargling with onomatopoeia,
y pensando en heteroglossia,
the killer’s assonance wakes at dusk.
the killer’s assonance wakes at dusk.
Feeling murderous for hyperbole,
selective only in diction.
Acquiring admiration of alliteration, it
chooses enjambment as it’s weapon.
Stealthily, its broken rhymes are made
like those of a caped crusade
-er and ugh it mutters.
Too much thought about
technicality
Kills the poem
or the author?
selective only in diction.
Acquiring admiration of alliteration, it
chooses enjambment as it’s weapon.
Stealthily, its broken rhymes are made
like those of a caped crusade
-er and ugh it mutters.
Too much thought about
technicality
Kills the poem
or the author?
Posted in alliteration, ambiguity, assonance, enjambment, language, onomaopoeia, sonnet by Unknown | 0 comments
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